Much over a year ago Bryant and I found ourselves dis-attached from each other. Walls were build up, cold shoulders were turned, and communication was only available through hurtful words. I had felt as if I lost the man I gave my future to. But no matter the pain him and I were not willing to throw in the towel. One condition I made when we started to accept work must be done to salvage our relationship was for him to get a tattoo to symbolize the heart break he put me through. Because he loves me, because he knew the pain he was putting me through, and how unfair it was, he agreed. But that of course was over a year ago. And in that year a lot had changed. He got the tattoo. And it will forever be a tribute to me. But it no longer represents what HE did to ME. It is about what we can do for each other. I lost much of my innocence I often tried to claim when we fought. And he finally opened my eyes to what I had been doing to him to cause him the heart break I punished him for doing to me. And in that moment I became self aware. And that’s all we really need. To be cautious of how we talk to each other. When your best friend, lover, roommate, and partner are all one person its easy to become subconscious to your language and tone. And when you need a punching bag, well guess who is always there? So to me, and to us, this tattoo is a reminder. That our love is unbreakable. That we both have flaws that are ongoing improvements. That communication is key to a healthy and happy union. And that we came from an ugly place, where not even our therapist believed we should stay together, and we now, have never been happier. California did not come and take it all. And that union pacific line brings us together, not tears us apart. And you my sweething cause me to forget to breathe. It’ll be you and me against the world. For the rest of our lives.
People who have a superiority complex based on their enjoyment of vintage music or books are some of the most annoying people in the world and if I ever hear you ridiculing someone just because they may not enjoy listening to the beatles whilst reading to kill a mockingbird and sipping a cup of hibiscus green tea i will literally come to your house and staple your nipples to your elbows
Is lonely. And scary. And a lot hotter than I expected despite the fair amount of warnings. But it won’t be long until my better half is here. The man that keeps me sane, keeps me motivated, and keeps a smile on my face. I prepared myself for anxiety, heartache, and intense feeling of regret. I have felt none of those. I’m looking forward to my future. I now believe I was being held back in California. Content in a routine that would have never allowed me to achieve greatness. Texas may never be my home. But I feel as if California would never have been either. There is more out there. And I plan on finding it with my best friend and strongest supporter by my side.
Really missing my boy hard #labs #yellowlabs #stepson